This work began as an experiment in sound design. The snap, crackle, & pop of my hip bone got very loud & frequent (& painful), so a week before my hip replacement, I sampled as many different sounds as I could emit from it. I hope you enjoy this fun piece!
Many habits in my life meant a lot to me for a long time, but in the end, when I finally realized they no longer served me, I had to let them go. These patterns were deeply ingrained, so when I got rid of them, I had to do so forcefully. I had to get mean! Hence, the coarse language in the third verse.
This first person singular narrative tells the story of a man in constant indecision, restlessness, irritability, and discontentedness. Many of us, in my experience, feel this way. We move from one catastrophe to the next, leaving immeasurable wreckage behind us. Chaos is our comfort zone. It is a place to belong.